The child

April 18, 2020 | Milan | 20-29 years

I was in a country house with my partner, my mother, and someone else, perhaps a friend of my mother's. I was pregnant and went into labor. I could not go to the hospital because they were overwhelmed with Covid cases, and they had become dangerous places. My mother and the other person helped me, but I forgot to tell my partner, who was outside in the garden, so she missed the birth. I felt very guilty and ashamed. Afterward, I realized that we had not bought supplies for the baby, and we could not weigh him or measure his Apgar score. Because of Covid, we could not go out and buy these things. For whatever reason, we did not name the baby and continued to call him "the Child.”